Ok, today I will just post a short one cos I just want to pour out some terrible feelings that I am going through now.
This whole week has been a bad one , no I should say a truly bad one.
I had a breakdown again and I also cannot imagine how I actually handle it. I feel that life is really meaning less at that time cos I am physically and mentally tired.
Keep asking myself, why am I in such a state now? I should not be having this kind of life at all ..........
I really hated myself but managed to get through it then.........However today something happened again which I feel so stressed, not to mention what is the issue but that particular person makes me pissed off and I really thought I can escape from that person forever.
No, there is no way I can , no one can imagine how much I really dislike that person at this moment.
That is a terrible thinking but I feel like running away now...........
Just want to live a life that I really want............
